#so i guess technically im drawing LESS than i used to but im just pumping out MORE finished stuff

[duskerot]

😐 hm .... la la la

[ruthlesslistener]

i draw too much from real life (autism go brrr i guess) but how do lurien’s wings fold?? like he usually has them pinned against his back but how does that. work. irl butterflies cannot do that so my brain is like ???? does not compute and im curious to know what you think

Oh big same?? Biology is my special interest so it makes everything even worse for me ksjdhfbgjsdf

The answer lies in specbio! Many of the lepidoptera genus in Hollow Knight appear to be able to fold down their wings/make them go limp in a manner that would be incompatable with irl butterflies and moths, so my hc is that to prevent tear for a bipedal lifestyle, they only pump hemolymph and other fluids into their wings when they're ready to fly, leaving them limp against their back otherwise. This means that being to fly quickly away from danger is nearly impossible, yes, but it also makes their wings harder to tear and less dangerous to them if they are damaged, which is essential when walking upright means that they'd be either folded behind their backs, where they can catch on things (butterflies), or to the sides where others can walk into them (moths). So instead of them pumping out their wings once after pupating and being ready to fly all the time, they are capable of turning them back and forth between being limp and fabriclike to being taught, strong wings for flight. This is either triggered by a conscious desire to fly, or arousal of some sort (fear, anger, etc) that gets their subconscious mind convinced that they either need to fly, flare their markings to one-up another in a dominance contest, or flash their wings to lure in a mate.

(For sanity's sake, and bc Markoth, Seer, and Thistlewind seem perfectly fine letting their own wings drag about, we're going to assume that the wing structure of anthro moths and butters is far stronger than actual insect wings irl, and that their scales function more like the feathers/featherdust of cockatiels vs irl. There's always some scales being rubbed off of the wings, but most of them are firmly fixed into place and can be regenerated if lost, unlike with real butterflies/moths. I'm going to attribute that to anthro bugs having far longer lifespans than irl bugs as well, who are very much 'PUPATE FUCK AND DIE')

For Lurien, his wings are especially crumpled because he never saw any reason to fly, and his position in his spire keeps him from going out and getting freaked out much. Butterflies are distinct from moths in that they fold their wings against their backs instead of laying them out to the sides, so he can't drape them around them with the same ease that the moth tribe does, which means they just kinda get mushed beneath his cape most of the time. The lack of use combined with the fact that he hates being looked at/he's pretty much convinced that PK would never throw a glance his way means that, for the most part, he never pumps out his wings, so they're just kinda. hanging there uselessly unless he gets especially pissed off at something. Think about crinkled clothes in a closet- technically you can iron them and put them in those protective thingies, but they're really more convenient to just stuff into whatever space is available and deal with the crinkles if you don't use them often enough to warrant such a loss of space

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EP 3: “Nancy Drew, Eat Your Heart Out” - Owen

EMMA’S EXIT INTERVIEW

Damn fuck. 

ari you're not allowed to watch my confessionals, so ignore this.

for everyone else: the video is upside down, and it's really symbolic of the dual game twist.

love, mj

So a potential alliance might be happening eventually?  I played with  both Kait and MJ in a Big Brother game and they are the only two people left in the game that I've known before we started.  Anyway, I've been talking to the both of them a bit, Kait is super nice and I love her and then we have MJ that likes Darren Criss too! 

So then yesterday Kait randomly asked how I was feeling now that the other people from Arabia were gone, and I was pretty honest.  I told her that I was a little on the nervous side but that Nick should have been on and around and that Alex shouldn't have taken anything but that it was like I was now starting over with all these people that I didn't know that I enjoyed getting to know.  Anyway, we talked a bit more then she suggested that she, MJ and I start an alliance for later on maybe if there is a tribe swap or if there is a merge and I'm not in the place to turn down any alliance so I told her I was down!  

With the way that the votes are going these days I'm SUPER nervous.  The trend seems to be that the person that is on both tribes going to tribal council is usually the one to get voted off of both.  That just... scares me?  Like, I just don't want it to ever be me.  Carson seems to be like a comp beast anyway and I think both of my tribes are solid, I just don't want to be that unlucky person that goes to two tribal councils then gets out by the luck of the draw. :/ 

In a way I'm glad I sat out this round, I SUCK at this challenge, I don't really understand it at all and I don't think I would have done either tribe any good if I participated.  I just hate the idea of sitting anything out, I want my tribes to think I'm worth keeping around.  

I'm starting to feel like there might be a swap coming up before too long, like, maybe when we get to 20 people, or even before then to even the tribes out.  It must suck for the people that have just three people on their tribes!

My goal was to not be the 23rd person out once Nick and Alex were voted out....  Now that Emma is gone (Oh god, I hope it was Emma, I'm having a hard time with all these names) I need a new goal and I think that is going to be to make it to the first tribe swaps!

The worst part about coming into All-Stars after being out of commission for so long is that EVERYONE has connections to EVERYONE. Then there's me over in the corner. I only know a few people coming into this season, and it's so intimidating because it seems like most of these recent players already know one another; I'm the odd one out. I'm not the most personable person either, so trying to create bonds is really tricky for me. I'm trying to piece together all of the preexisting connections and stuff, but this is so rough. Ahhhhhhhhhh 

welp, i asked the first person for an alliance, that being jenn. i feel like im already late to the alliance scene, and im thinking if i dont make an alliance soon, im fucked.

honest to god all the challenges in this game are ones im shit at. I really really hope Pat is really with me bc it looks like were going to lose again. also i dont have shit going on my game b tribe so if we go to tribal im gonna have to beg steffen for my life oh boy

pat: has good scores that he says we can use if we cant beat them me: stops trying 

this is technically for last episode but oh well

hooooooooly wooooooooow I'm so fucking mad about that score I got. It cost one of my tribes the win??? Which was super duper sad, but luckily Emma's other tribe lost too, so it should be and was an easy vote. I was a bit worried that Logan's relationship with her would get in the way (if it exists at all idk man), but I survived :') and now my frickin game b tribe can NOT lose again i will do WHATEVER IT FRICKING TAKES to WIN 

The cool thing though was that my OTHER tribe got first, and I was the first one to go on that reward cool fun trip to the adventure :~) I made it pretty far in... And I didn't get anything. But then I turned right around and told Jake what to do, and then Steffen, and then BOTH of Lydia's trips. I was on call with them through all of it and I'm SCREAMING kjfdshdsj because literally both ricardo and gage told me what they got too????? So like... I know Jake has the record which lets him flip the immunity scores around, and Lydia got the weird ass Whirlpool Idol, which means there has gotta be a lot of stuff in there. And Ricardo met Jordan Pines... Gage didn't get any further than I did. 

So even though I didn't get any items, I know who did, I know what they do, and I know what does and doesn't work in the adventure. I don't have a power, but I have knowledge, and in this game, knowledge is power. I'm gonna make a spreadsheet with everything that's happened so far..

The one thing I don't get is the clue Alex gave. Maybe it's fake. And Kait somehow got a clue too, but she hasn't given it to me? Sooooo SUSPICIOUS. We'll see :) if i can get it from her :)

me: i did so good!!! jakey: i got 290 me: the... fuck

like.... what kinda FREAKS OF NATURE r these people??? with these high ass scores??? like WHAT

like...

BUT on the other hand, i also made an alliance with ruthie. yes i made an alliance with the 2 girls on my tribe. what can i say? im a feminist. like... idek i feel so outmatched here everyoens so much better than me, and im just waiting to leave, but i know i should just work harder, and ill be able to do somethin. i cant just sit back and be a little bitch

Simon quit? 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Just sped up the inevitable probably. In other news I had the worst score in that challenge so I'm glad to be morphing into the goat at an earlier stage than usual. Still alliance-less and can't wait for the first swap to murder me. Honestly I was too exhausted today to pm anyone so I just like to send ugly snaps instead x

MAKALU WON!

I'M GOING TO CRY, I'M SO HAPPY. 

Bless Owen for allowing me to use his score and for Jimmy being safe (Jessy DID THAT) and for Simon quitting to keep MJ and Kait safe and taking us to Final 21. Bless going on an adventure and Bering staying the course. But damn, can Caspian lose one already? 

Well back to things looking grim because Adventureland wasn't all it's cracked up to be. How did Jake find something on his first go? 

Both my tribes won first I'm gonna fucking SCREECH

once again, i'm the biggest baddest adventurest bitch there is like ??? adventure??? my house. the place i was born. i crawled my ragged ass out the whirlpool and all the way up the side of the volcano and ryan tossed me in like vanuatu and now here i am, a rock monster with lobster claws and craggly skin 

anyways, I tried the riddles and failed because I was getting too caught up in capitalized letters??? im glad my english major really helped out !!! capitalization ! fun ! FUCK CASEY YATES 

anyways I told steffen how to do it, and he got this golden apple like?? I WANTED. THAT. ARE YOU. KIDDING ME. I'M SO. MAD. First of all it's like the oasis which would be good by itself but then a double vote??? that's on CRACK I WANT IT SAKJDFSH but it was worth it to tell him because at least I know where it's at which is good.

Ricardo and Jake didn't get anything, and then Jenn messaged me and SHE didn't get anything, but Lydia still has a trip thank god whew

I literally know what everyone did???? Shook. Nancy Drew, eat your heart out.

Also... Of course Simon quits. Honestly, that's really shitty of him but I didn't expect anything less with his attitude??? That's that on that. Kind of sad tribal is cancelled because I wanted chaos but oh well! Final 21, nice!

I'm expecting some kind of swap to happen at 20 like in Ol*mpics, but we'll see. For now, I have to win this next challenge... I need to go back on this damn adventure and get something for myself. I'm sick of being a charity!

Quitters are Shitters Deserters are Perverters Drop Outs are Slop Scouts

(courtesy of Thesaurus.com and RhymeZone.com)

So, Simon quit and that's kind of annoying, like WHY QUIT AN ALL STARS SEASON?  That's like a slap in the face to the hosts, they could have casted anyone and they casted you and you walked, UGH.  

I wish Alex was still around, at least he would have been more of an asset to his teams than Simon was, jeez.  

Also, in happier news, I think Carson and I are going to make a final 2 alliance and I'm SO pumped, she's one of my favorite people here and I really trust her. If we win reward or if she wins reward on her other tribe I'll even think about giving her the clue Alex left me with!  Maybe that would solidify us a little bit more!

I'm? actually kinda bummed that Simon quit. Sure, our tribal on Osh Kosh B'gosh was going to be messy I'm sure, because I'm pretty sure Matt would've wanted to keep Simon instead of Gage whereas I'd rather keep Gage over either of them. I mean like it just kinda sucks because that's not really the spirit of an All Stars season - you want people to play hard and put it all out on the line, not quit because you don't wanna lose your never voted out record. I love Simon, but it just kinda sucks I guess. I mean I could've voted Matt out 2-1-1 or something hehe wouldn't that have been fun :') 

Anyways I've been thinking a lot about my place in this game and where I see myself in social standings. There are a few people that literally have not spoken to me at all - which like I get. It's a huge cast and it's one world, it's hard to keep up with everyone. However like, nnnnnnnn hello binch I exist! Other than that, I think I have enough good connections throughout this game to at least get me to the merge provided I don't see too many tribals. I'm really feeling the pressure in my A game with my tribe only having 3 people left with myself, Matt, and Gage. I don't know how close the two of them are, but I have alliances with both of them so as long as neither of them catch on I'm the swing vote. Matt would be soooo mad at me if I voted him out, but I think it'd be better for me in the long run to have him leave because of our history together - I just don't see us really moving past it. We can work together for now, but I think that the second we meet shaky waters it's going to be game on and things are going to get ugly once more. However, Gage I trust a lot more and I feel like would potentially get me further in the game because he's a number that I think I have a lot more control over instead of Matt. Idk. Watch this be completely the opposite or somehting or watch me get fucked over if we go to tribal again or some shit. NNNNNNN. Mess. 

My plan for tomorrow is to hit up the following people - Jessy, Steven, and Abbey. Abbey.......maybe not we'll see how festive I'm feeling. I'll prob talk more to Wes also, because apparently Wes went asking Jakey for an alliance and little ol' me is feeling a little left out! Wes hasn't fucking done a single thing on the Kabru tribe, who the fuck he think he is tryna make alliances n shit! Sit down and be a productive tribe member, tHANKS.